Observations on October 14th, 2011

If I could capture my racing thoughts this morning, It would mean that I have finally gotten over my blog wall.  I used to journal every morning, regardless of when I awoke.  Then something happened that prevented me from sharing my innermost thoughts and feelings with anyone.  I became almost reclusive.  My days became more simple than I can remember.  I developed the attitude that there is just nothing that can be done about the state of my community, my state government, and hence the national destiny.  I can't really say that I had given up, but coming out of that attitude is more difficult than I had imagined.

I am told by my closer allies that I look too much into current events for my own good.  My question is:

"If one doesn't like what he sees, he ought to be able to change it."  This is simply a contradiction of everything I've been taught from the time I can remember who I was. Are we all not taught from birth that setting goals and attaining them is the primary path to success?  And yet, looking back from the place in life I am now, questions arise as to this simple premise.  The obstacles in front of attainment were not addressed, because the complexity of the future was beyond the perception of those laying the groundwork for the child at the time.

Now, skipping to the present moment, would I be irresponsible to question where the world is going?  Oh, believe me, I am well versed in the contradicting philosophies governing the relevance of an individual and his effect on the world.  Can one person have an effect on change for the better?  If rampant greed has set the stage for a worldwide breakdown, then ought one begin by harnessing his own tendency towards this deadly sin?  In other words, how much effect does one individual have on what he witnesses that feels like he is prewired to oppose?

These are just some of the questions and issues that wake me up in the middle of the night.